Days Gone By

The past few days have been a little rough for me. I've been trying to get so much done, trying to figure out where God is leading me, and trying to figure exactly what I'm supposed to do with myself and my time. I still really have no idea, but I'm trying. These few days have really brought somethings to mind for me, about both the past and the present. There are, of course, always worries about the future, but I know that God has a plan for me even when I'm struggling to figure out what I'm going to do about tomorrow.

First, the Past.

The past is something people either love or hate. I love some of it...hate the rest of it. I can still remember a Sunday that I spent in my room because I was mean to my little brother. Yeah, I was mean once. And, of course, I can remember how sad I was when I moved away from Colorado and all the friends and memories I had there. As a ten-year-old, it was a traumatic experience. I also remember meeting one of my greatest friends at church a couple months later, and then only a few months after that moving again. The past is somewhere that I use to teach lessons that I've learned; it's somewhere I need to go sometimes to remember what it was like back then. MY "good-ol-days."

Second. The Present.

The present is full of stress. There's so much of the "I'm-late-get-outta-my-way!" and "Hurry-up" and all that crazy stuff. The stress for me is paramount. I'm freaking out. My classes are so hard. I'm tired. I'm almost always hungry (a rare thing for me). I can't sleep when I want to, but I can fall asleep in classes. I don't want to write this paper; I can't think of a title. I can't think of a topic. I can't pass this test. There's no way. I'm so negative! That's something that I'm going to be working on. Will you join me? And I'm working on calming myself down. The fatigue that's setting in doesn't help at all, but I'm working on it. I have to work, too...And I'm trying to bring myself down a notch while I'm there. Just listen, not talk all the time.

It may take a while, but I think it'll work.

The Future. Actually, let's not talk about the future. Not yet. I think that can wait for another day...in the future. Don't you?